All in the MIND....

Sitting in my window feeling the cool breeze, listening to the sounds of the birds and just soaking in the moment. Its something I do every morning after the weekly morning ritual of seeing my baby off to school and before I start my day. Its a window of 'me time'. 

Today though seems different. 

I have millions of thoughts crisscrossing my mind. Im just observing them. While doing so I realize, these many thoughts running in my mind may have different words but the message is the same. Its LOVE.... Im in a state of love.

The love has come from my gratitude to everything today. That I did wake up and so did my loved ones, to live another beautiful day in the company of each other. Take a moment and think.. If you get up one morning and find your loved one sleeping besides you gone; how would that make you feel. I know im being quite drastic but it just dawned on me how feeble life is. How many things would have been left to see, do, tell, share...... Our brilliant ability to take everything for granted then leaves us with the feeling of guilt, emptyness, void. And inspite of knowing this we are still occupied with mundane things that take up most of our energy and time. Do we even know the meaning of leisurely anymore? Even while on vacations most of us are caught up making plans of what to do next. Hello.... Didnt you come here to just chillax and maybe learn something while you are at it. 

I envy the village people every time I go for a trek. Trekking is an addiction by the way. The silence, solitude and serenity of being in the company of nature in the lap of the universe is unimaginable. Will keep that experience for another post though. Do you know how it feels to just sit underneath a tree through out the morning and deep into the afternoon and just see the clouds pass by. The messages are loud and clear. Its just us who are so caught up in this cacophony that we fail to even listen to our own body forget anything around. 

Today is one such morning when im deeply tuned within. Just observing. My silence helps me listen. As my breath slows down, I can sense that each part of my body has a mind of its own and is revealing in its own moment. My fingers are enjoying the moment of touch with my love and silence is doing all the talking. A surge of warmth fills me up as my arms feel the hugs which do the talking when words fail me. Its bliss in a moment which feels like eternity. Im so wrapped in the now that I have actually become love. 

The phone rings ending the moment.. Argh.. Gadgets I tell myself. But the new me still in the state of love; thankfully is quite happy to hear my father on the other end asking caringly.. Would you be joining us for lunch today.. ?

Ah! gadgets I tell myself again.. Now in different light but nevertheless in gratitude.

A feeling called LOVE

A light breeze caressing a withered leaf.... 

being picked up and swept away by this gentle breeze so lovingly that the leaf was ready to go wherever whichever direction the breeze took it. There was love in the way the breeze touched and picked up the leaf, swept the leaf with it and let it merge with its essence its fragrance its lightness. The love that the breeze bought made the leaf want to live again, to sway to its tunes, to feel the raindrops as they would dance on it. But to merge with this breeze the leaf has to understand and learn to love....just as the breeze careeses everything it touches so will the leaf have to learn to live again. But the leaf is so withered that every crinkle u touch turns it to dust. So it will either have to die and be born again to be with the breeze or it will have to turn into dust and still be swept away by the breeze. No matter what or which way, the leaf has to wander off with the breeze.   

Have u noticed how effortlessly the wind flows, romancing everything in its way. It doesnt discriminate its love towards anything or anyone in particular. But, its not always in the mood for romance. There are times when it carries the emotion of anger causing destruction to every little thing that stands in its path without the same bias. Just like the romancing wind, we need to learn to flow effortlessly loving everyone and everything that comes in our path spreading the fragrance of compassion and kindness. This happens only when we learn to calm the mind and look at the stillness in the picture, observing every detail that was distorted by the ripples. Most of the times we are living as a perception of others expectations, forgetting who we really are. There is a much bigger picture than we can actually visualize. The moment we realize this; is the moment the journey begins. There is no past or future. Its all about being in the now. If you give it a thought you'll realize, Everything in the universe is in motion. So are we. And anything thats moving keeps changing. So what I was a moment ago is a different me now. But its still me. When we learn to observe as a third person, and let all the different me come together to unite harmoniously is the moment we are in equilibrium with the universe. Emotions and thoughts are always there. Understanding this and detaching from them is when one finds liberation. 

Like I said.. To be with the breeze you have to become the breeze, similarly to feel the love you have to become love. Its the only emotion on which the universe exists. Understand love and everything will fall in place.